Kensho Godchaser has done it again. It seems there is always a posting over there that talks directly to me. Today’s is This Day Our Daily Goddess, which is full of suggestions for connecting with the Goddess everyday, not just once or twice a month.
In a similar vein, I recently read Dianne Sylvan’s The Circle Within: Creating a Wiccan Spiritual Tradition, an excellent book about creating a daily spiritual practice. This is something I would dearly love to do, and about which I have been thinking about more and more. But… (and there is always a but) I keep putting it off. After the winter holidays, I said, when things are back to normal. Then I found out we were moving to TO. Now I say after we have moved and are settled in. I will probably find another excuse then. So why don’t I start now? Well… I’m embarrassed. quanta came into the bedroom one time while I was meditating, and I felt so silly. I’d feel even sillier doing it everyday, maybe several times a day. And I’d also be embarrassed if he knew I read devotional poems to the Lord and Lady, or said daily prayers to Them. I am a horribly shy person. I won’t even exercise if quanta is home. Anything that is even remotely self-improvement oriented I want to keep totally to myself. So, instead of connecting with my deities, I’m worried about what someone else will think. It is pretty dumb, since I know quanta would be happy if I found a little more peace within myself.
So what am I going to do? I just don’t know.