Sometimes I feel like I am only paying lip service to my beliefs. If you were to ask me about any of them, I would clearly lay them out. But, deep down, sometimes I’m not sure if I real believe what I say I believe.
Take reincarnation for example. I say that I believe in reincarnation. I believe that we live multiple lives here on Earth. We are supposed to work through a different set of lessons each lifetime, and eventually we progress through all the lessons and reunite with the divine. I also believe that we get a bit of a rest between each life, and we are often reunited with our loved ones.
But, I’m not sure, deep down, if I really believe in reincarnation. If I did, would I be so afraid of death? I don’t ever want to be separated from my loved ones. And, as odd as it sounds, there is so much to learn, and I don’t want to die before learning it all.
Does this make me a hypocrite? Do I talk the talk but not walk the walk? Am I being untrue to my beliefs by having such doubt? I really don’t know.