Sometimes I feel like I am only paying lip service to my beliefs. If you were to ask me about any of them, I would clearly lay them out. But, deep down, sometimes I’m not sure if I real believe what I say I believe.
Take reincarnation for example. I say that I believe in reincarnation. I believe that we live multiple lives here on Earth. We are supposed to work through a different set of lessons each lifetime, and eventually we progress through all the lessons and reunite with the divine. I also believe that we get a bit of a rest between each life, and we are often reunited with our loved ones.
But, I’m not sure, deep down, if I really believe in reincarnation. If I did, would I be so afraid of death? I don’t ever want to be separated from my loved ones. And, as odd as it sounds, there is so much to learn, and I don’t want to die before learning it all.
Does this make me a hypocrite? Do I talk the talk but not walk the walk? Am I being untrue to my beliefs by having such doubt? I really don’t know.
I believe in reincarnation, the same as you do. But being afraid of actual death is normal I think. I don;t think it makes you a hypocrite. Not wanting to be away from loved ones is maybe because you are attached to this life and all of your family, etc. I can’t really say that I fear death, per say. I think I fear the most…leaving my kids. No, not hypocritical…nahhhh…In the next life…you will be attached to the loved ones again. It is a cycle…Ok, I am rambling…LOL!
You are right, Lani. Sometimes I think I just overthink things. Maybe it is okay to believe something and question it. Maybe that is how we grow.
There is believing, and there is knowing.
One day I was privileged to recover some memories of a (presumably most recent) prior life. And with that, I became not at all afraid of death. I am now quite certain that this life will end when it needs to end, and that I shall return at a later time.