Is There More?

Not to long ago, I watched all fourteen episode of Dead Like Me in the span of a couple of days. (For those who don’t know what Dead Like Me is, it is a show about a girl who dies and becomes a reaper. It’s great black humour.) I really enjoyed the show. The episodes were funny, but they were also touching. And they made me think… mostly about death.

I have always been a little afraid of death. My maternal grandmother died when I was three. When I was nine, my friend Andrew Warburton got lost in the woods while on vacation and died. My dog Spike got run over when I was about ten. My paternal grandfather died what I was about thirteen, followed by my maternal grandfather when I was fifteen. My paternal grandmother lived only another year. In recent years, my mom’s best friend, Joyce, and my dog Max have also passed away. I was never one of those teenagers that thinks they will live forever. I knew at an early age that people died. It has never really scared me, until recently.

When I was younger, I assumed God took care of everyone that died. That made it much easier to deal with death. As I got older and started to search for a religion that met my needs, I began to believe in reincarnation. It was really comforting to think I would see my friends and loved ones in another life. But now, I’m not sure what to believe. I want to believe there is something more, but I don’t think I am capable of that right now. And if in the end there is nothing, then why are we here to begin with? What is the point of learning, improving ourselves, all the things we do everyday? I know some of the answers to those questions, but not all of them. I think that is okay though, because I think finding those answers is why we are here. I just hope with all my being that there is something beyond this life.


2 Responses

  1. Bec says:

    To be honest, I’m not sure what I believe, like you I used to believe that god took care of the dead, then I found reincarnation. But at this point in my path I’m not sure what I believe, to be honest I’m not sure it matters.

    I think that as long as you live a good life, do good things, be the best you can be etc. You’ll go where the good people go or do what the good people do. Anyway that’s just my thoughts 😀

  2. quanta says:

    “What is the point of learning, improving ourselves, all the things we do everyday?”

    They say that a true gentleman will eat with knife and fork even when alone. In the same way, we should strive to do what we can to make our short lives in this realm a satisfying one, if only for our own sake.